I've read many posts and have read how happy people were when they first got their puppies...but mine is a slightly different story...I think. This is also posted for those of you who also felt the way I do but didn't want to tell anyone.
Sunday, at 3:30 pm I call a breeder that lives 2 hours and 15 minutes away. I ask her all the necessary questions and figure she is ok, has a female...told her I would leave at 4pm, get there at 6 or so.
I pick up the pup (I stayed there 2 hours just seeing if I wanted her)and we, my boyfriend and I were on our way home with the pup, Chanel, at 8:45 pm. I drove. I am excited, but a bit tired. Sleep? No. I got two hours of sleep that night.
I was feeling very emotional Monday morning. I had lots of things to buy (I had been planning on purchasing a puppy for months, if not a year, but no females were available, so I hadn't bought much, but knew what to buy). So, I just spent $2000 on my beautiful puppy. Now I feel overwhelmed becasue I need to spend lots more on a bed, crate, shampoo, etc.
So everyday, up until today, Saturday, I have been crying. Here were the issues I kept going over in my head (I guess this is like a diary or something):
1. I am a teacher, and do not get paid during the summer, but saved enough to make it through the summer.
2. I have credit cards I can pay off, or towards, just using the money I spent on buying her.
3. I have two other dogs, why am I getting another one?
4. I feel guilty because my boyfriend buys me what I want, then I spaz out when I finally get what I want.
5. How am I supposed to take care of her? She's potty trained nicely at 4 months old, the breeder did a good job with that.
6. Why do I feel so sad...she' an ideal Maltese, sweet face, great calm temperment, beautiful coat, all black points, but I feel like there is no connection.
So, basically, I think I was experiencing two things, buyers remorse and post pardom depression. I do not have any children and do not plan to for some time. I wanted a puppy right now so that I could atleast spend 1.5 months working with her and spending time with her. But now I feel overwhelmed. Today I feel okay, but I have stomach aches, etc. I was on my phone with my friend crying and telling her I wanted to take her back, and she said she went through the same thing I did when she got her puppy one month ago, and felt like she didn't want to keep him either.
So, basically, I felt horrible that I didn't want her and wanted to take her back, and I am just getting over the money portion of it. I expected to pay $2000 for a female Maltese, so I don't know why it was such a big deal. Oh, then I had to take my car in to get the 60,000 mile maintenance done, which was over $1000. So, lots of money was being spent in a week's time and I have always had problems spending money.
So, if you didn't get bored yet while reading through my ramblings, did anyone else go through this overwhelming period of when you first brought your puppy home? Or am I the only one?
I also thought maybe it wasn't time for me to get a puppy, but I had been planning this for half a year. Go figure, I am weird.
I also talked to one of my other friends who rescued a dog and she felt bad the first night and thought to herself...what have I just done, after telling everyone how much I want a dog, now I have one and I feel horrible...
Just to let you know, there is a happy ending
I love Chanel very much. She is a lot of work to take care of, but I know it will be worth it. She sits on my lap, rides in the car with me, lets me comb her hair easily, vet said she is very healthy, I'm working with tear staining that seems it will never go away (I used peroxide and it is working slowly), and she is very energetic and curious. She is the sweetest thing and I am happy I got her. We make sacrafices for our loved ones.
Thanks again for listening.

Sunday, at 3:30 pm I call a breeder that lives 2 hours and 15 minutes away. I ask her all the necessary questions and figure she is ok, has a female...told her I would leave at 4pm, get there at 6 or so.
I pick up the pup (I stayed there 2 hours just seeing if I wanted her)and we, my boyfriend and I were on our way home with the pup, Chanel, at 8:45 pm. I drove. I am excited, but a bit tired. Sleep? No. I got two hours of sleep that night.
I was feeling very emotional Monday morning. I had lots of things to buy (I had been planning on purchasing a puppy for months, if not a year, but no females were available, so I hadn't bought much, but knew what to buy). So, I just spent $2000 on my beautiful puppy. Now I feel overwhelmed becasue I need to spend lots more on a bed, crate, shampoo, etc.
So everyday, up until today, Saturday, I have been crying. Here were the issues I kept going over in my head (I guess this is like a diary or something):
1. I am a teacher, and do not get paid during the summer, but saved enough to make it through the summer.
2. I have credit cards I can pay off, or towards, just using the money I spent on buying her.
3. I have two other dogs, why am I getting another one?
4. I feel guilty because my boyfriend buys me what I want, then I spaz out when I finally get what I want.
5. How am I supposed to take care of her? She's potty trained nicely at 4 months old, the breeder did a good job with that.
6. Why do I feel so sad...she' an ideal Maltese, sweet face, great calm temperment, beautiful coat, all black points, but I feel like there is no connection.
So, basically, I think I was experiencing two things, buyers remorse and post pardom depression. I do not have any children and do not plan to for some time. I wanted a puppy right now so that I could atleast spend 1.5 months working with her and spending time with her. But now I feel overwhelmed. Today I feel okay, but I have stomach aches, etc. I was on my phone with my friend crying and telling her I wanted to take her back, and she said she went through the same thing I did when she got her puppy one month ago, and felt like she didn't want to keep him either.
So, basically, I felt horrible that I didn't want her and wanted to take her back, and I am just getting over the money portion of it. I expected to pay $2000 for a female Maltese, so I don't know why it was such a big deal. Oh, then I had to take my car in to get the 60,000 mile maintenance done, which was over $1000. So, lots of money was being spent in a week's time and I have always had problems spending money.
So, if you didn't get bored yet while reading through my ramblings, did anyone else go through this overwhelming period of when you first brought your puppy home? Or am I the only one?

I also talked to one of my other friends who rescued a dog and she felt bad the first night and thought to herself...what have I just done, after telling everyone how much I want a dog, now I have one and I feel horrible...
Just to let you know, there is a happy ending



Thanks again for listening.